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Last Words

Last Words

This year our family said goodbye to both of my Grandfathers and paternal Grandmother.   My Grandfathers were both ill and their deaths we prepared for, as much as possible.   My Grandmother, however, was sudden and quite a shock.  I have had the most difficulty dealing with losing her. One day I will be able to write about it, but today is not that day.  I miss all three of my Grandparents immensely and would give anything for one more day with all of them.

My thoughts today are about my Mother’s Father.  Mr. Hubert Toole.   My Grandfather was a great man, and he was loved beyond measure by the entire family and all who knew him.   My heart also breaks for my Grandmother, who lost the love of her life.  I know every day is a struggle for her.

At my Grandfather Toole’s funeral this summer, the man who spoke said something that has stuck with me. Basically he said, that when you lose someone, you tend to look back at the last conversation you had with them and sometimes those conversations hold something special; something that can bring you peace.  I visited with my Grandfather about 2 weeks before he passed away, he was at home at the time.  Our conversation was short, as he was quite tired.  He asked me a if I was moving, which I found funny as I had no plans to leave the city.   I chuckled and said “No, do you think I should?”  He smiled and said “You’ll know what’s best” and closed his eyes and went to sleep.   At the time I just thought it was a strange thing for him to ask.  I thought he was just tired, and a bit confused.  However, when the man spoke at the funeral and I remembered the conversation, his words started to mean something different.

No, I’m not moving, and that part of the conversation doesn’t even matter.  The words I needed to hear, and need to continue hearing are “You’ll know what’s best.”   Now, I keep repeating this to myself every time I second guess myself, which unfortunately, is a lot.  I tend to allow my thoughts to overwhelm me and anxiety takes over, but I have been able to talk myself down by remembering these words.   I know he had faith in me , I just need to have it in myself and with that I can face any challenge.   I’m hoping that for times when I’m not so strong, a visible reminder will help, I was so excited when it arrived!  A simple bracelet, with a special message…

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Post By Heather Hadley


This post is a very heartfelt THANK YOU to all my loved ones. My family, friends, Dad’s friends, many I haven’t seen for years and those who are strangers no more. The kindness, support, compassion and expressions of sympathy, attending the funeral, flowers, cards, food, phone calls, emails, messages, handshakes, hugs and kind words have meant more than words can say.

Dad is now at peace and his suffering is over. After many years of sickness, surgeries and extended hospital stays, In the summer of 2012 ,Dad suffered a stroke. I decided at that time to start a journal “Our Journey” this has been very helpful. 10608817_10152613372465482_998652302_n

Over the next two years we saw a rapid decline in Mom’s health and Dad’s suffering and pain consumed him these years were the hardest. Today I can take comfort and strength from my memories of better times.


Summers at Folly Lake where Dad taught me to swim.


The vacations to Ontario, PEI. and Newfoundland just to name a few.

10609273_10152613372185482_1029553053_nTeaching me to drive, a standard too!


Walking me down the aisle.


Never judging, just being there, even when I made poor choices. He was not a person to say a lot, but he guided and supported me when I needed help.


Dad was there when something needed to be fixed, or you needed to figure out how it worked. He enjoyed the challenge.


My budding foodie


My son has decided he is going to participate in “try something new Tuesdays,” a suggestion he saw while watching YTV. The idea is to simply try something new in general, an activity, new foods, anything. He has decided that he’s going to focus on tasting new things because he has recently taken more of an interest in food. We watched Masterchef Canada together, and he was very inspired by what he saw.

The first food he chose to try was avocado.

We went to the grocery store, I showed him how to determine if they were ripe, and let him choose one to try.

He was hesitant but he bravely took a bite with that, he wasn’t sure what to think so he decided to take a second bite.

End result: He did not like it, he had insisted on trying it on its own and this could have been the issue, and he says that he will consider trying avocado again just in case it is better in a recipe.


Banana Oatmeal Chocolate Chip Cookies

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1 1/2 cups all-purpose flour
  1/4 teaspoon baking soda
  1/4 teaspoon salt
 3/4 cup butter, slightly softened
  2/3 cup sugar
 1/3 cup packed light brown sugar
  1 large egg
 2 teaspoons vanilla extract
 1/2 cup mashed overripe bananas
  1 cup old-fashion rolled oats
 1 cup milk chocolate or semi-sweet morsels


Mix flour, soda & salt in a separate bowl and set aside.

Mix butter, sugar, brown sugar, egg and vanilla with an electric mixer until smooth.

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Mix in Banana then add oats and chocolate chips.

The batter will be quite wet once completely mixed.

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With a spoon, drop about an inch apart (they do not spread out much)

onto a non-stick or parchment covered cookie sheet. 

Bake @ 375º until golden

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Yields about 2 dozen

A Token of Hope


I received a very special gift today, and I felt inspired to write a bit about what it meant to me.

My faith in other human beings has recently been pretty much decimated and hope feels very hard to come by.  I have become very thankful for the small things and have been trying my best to cling to anything good and/or positive.  I sit here thinking about the last little while and I realize that as bad as things can get in any situation, (admittedly for me, things could be much worse); there always seems to be small shimmers of humanity and kindness that shine through to keep you moving forward. The trick however, is being able to see through the darkness and appreciate these shimmers for what they are. They are the very foundations of hope.

Eleanor Roosevelt said “It is better to light a candle than to curse the darkness,” a quote you see used a lot, however, what happens to those who are unable to light a candle? Generally speaking, darkness can overtake even the strongest person and they find themselves unable to make their own way out. It is at this time that I feel other people can make all the difference. Not one person in particular, but any person, family, friends, strangers… anyone; small acts of basic humanity can make a huge difference to someone who is struggling.

“Give light, and the darkness will disappear of itself.” – Desiderius Erasmus

Today’s shimmer of hope was in the form of a gift. A beautiful necklace by Aflame Creations that I have had my eye on for quite some time. Each time I passed by the artists table at the market, I would look at all of her beautiful jewelry and I could never quite justify spending the money on myself when I need to pay bills, buy groceries, gas, etc. Which is so dumb since I waste money on silly things all the time, but I just couldn’t do this for myself, for whatever reason. Last week, I had a brief chat about Aflame Creations, I spoke of my love of the jewelry, the pieces I liked best, and how I was determined to get a piece soon. 

Today the necklace I had mentioned was left for me, and I cried. I cried because it is beautiful, I cried because it was so thoughtful, far too generous and more than I deserved. I cried because the thought of someone thinking of me and remembering a random conversation that I myself had long forgotten. I cried because this token came at a time when hope is something I am struggling to hang on to. 

I must say, I was not surprised by the generosity of the gift giver, this person is, in my opinion, simply amazing, hands down one of the greatest people I have the pleasure of knowing. I was surprised, however, that the small four letter word engraved upon this necklace is exactly the gift that was being given, knowingly or not.

Thank You

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The World needs more men like Imam Ajmal Masoor


Watch this video:

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I have no idea what it is like to be a Muslim today, but I know that if the rest of the world judged me on the actions of the loonies from Westboro Baptist Church… well.. yeah… I’d want to scream from the rooftops and fight that stereotype.

Fanatics and radicals are everywhere, in every religion and fringe group, the world cannot continue to paint everyone with the same brush and expect people not to fight back. Instead of good decent people fighting with one another, we need to join together in the name of peace and stomp these terrorist radicals into the ground. (all of them, not just the Muslim ones!)

Visit The Imam’s website here: